those negative feelings

It's funny how I have written 255 posts here but I just cannot think of anything to make the number grow nowadays. To say that my life has slid into a routine would be an exaggeration. To say that I have nothing to write here would be lying.

Because I do. I have lots and lots of things to write. I just don't know where to start. And I know, it will come out all wrong.

What I can share with you is this.

I'm hurt. To be second-graded in the eyes of a loved one hurts. It hurts when the one whom you wanna be heard the most refuses to listen to you, thinking of course she's always right. If I could erase everything that has happened in 2005, I would. Then maybe, I wouldn't have reached this stage where I feel chucked aside just because you're the personification of God in her eyes.

I'm tired and freaking disappointed.

I wish I had never met you.