Thursday, January 26, 2006

i'm back

i'm back in business.

i'd like to tell you where i've been, how i've been, what has happened and what-nots. aside from those really random updates, i've been getting on quite well. not that everything has been peachy perfect or i've been feeling on top of the world but i'm learning to get there. i've learnt that time heals and that time is an important ingredient for us to get a grip on things and that we are always in control of our emotions despite many many obstacles that come our way.

this is not an emotional plea for help for everyone to understand me. i admit i've done a few mistakes here and there but ultimately, what i really want is for me to be happy. i'd love it if i'm able to keep everyone happy but that's the thing, i can't. you give some, you take some. sometimes when i look back, i ask myself, 'am i selfish?'. but you are too. what is right to you does not mean it's right for me. what you think makes me happy might not be actually what i need to be happy. i believe that if u can find it in your heart to love someone, you'll find it in your heart to respect his/her decisions without questioning their motives just because you want them to be happy at the end of the day.

because sometimes, love is unconditional. when you love, you embrace everything, the good and the bad. loving is after all about acceptance most of the time.