poured out my heart & soul to bestie. lots of things on our minds today. it's scary how life takes us on a merry-go-round and how we stumble & crawl & do anything within our grasp just to feel better. to feel good is an essential afterall. bestie & i had a good read at kino & borders. self-enriching books make you feel a wee bit better.

sometimes, i really wonder. issit good to be honest or not? because at the end of the day, i still get the same result. the same feeling of disappointment you give me. and i can tell you the feeling makes me feel all shitty inside. what do you actually expect from me? i can tell you this. i've never felt more sure in my life and if you cannot give me a tuppence of your trust & faith, i'm sorry but i have nothing else to say.

baby, thank you for being there. and for all the warmth & security you give me.

you'll never know how hurt i felt when you ignored me like that. you're supposed to be family afterall. but it's all inside. never will i overstep my boundaries with you.

it's good to be choosy cuz it does not allow you to settle for second best. me thinks.